When the Elm tree forgot

When the Elm tree forgot

Not only humans sometimes forget our purpose, why we came to be on this earth, what fruits to give, and how to flourish.

Once I heard that in a field full of trees an Elm was disoriented. It saw that next to it a fragrant and colorful cherry tree flourished, and people came to visit that tree, to smell it, and contemplate it. It felt envious of that popularity. It wanted to be like the cherry tree, but no matter how hard it tried, every spring it never managed to blossom.

It tried a lot, it exerted itself so much that without realizing it, a group of birds took flight and went to eat at the plum tree in front of it. 

The birds gathered there, sang, and ate in that plum tree. What a beautiful congregation, sighed the Elm.

If I didn’t manage to blossom, I would love to bear fruit. To give something that would make many birds come to cheer me with their songs. But no matter how much it wanted, it didn’t bear fruit, and it missed the birds’ perching on its branches.

No one comes to eat because I don’t bear fruit, no one comes to smell me because I don’t give flowers, the Elm lamented in the seasons.

Perhaps I should be lighter, to be able to climb between walls and windows and thus decorate the houses and gardens inhabited by humans. It then stopped absorbing water, tried to hide from the sun so as not to become stronger. Languidly it wanted to penetrate between the walls, but no matter how hard it tried, it almost lost its roots, as it no longer had leaves or strength. In that convalescent state, it could feel the presence of an owl. A wise and sincere bird, who does not lose flight over trivial matters. “What has happened to you, strong and solid Elm? 

Where I always come to find refuge. Where the weary come to find serenity under your shade on hot days, where the birds come to rest after a long flight, where lovers come to be inspired. Where children lose their fear of climbing high.

You are an Elm tree, you won’t bloom like the cherry tree, nor bear fruit like the plum tree, nor climb like the vines; you have come to provide shade, shelter, and strength, because each one comes to offer what one intentionally likes to be.

Inspired by a story told on the psi.mammoliti podcast.

Listening to the inaudible

Uu Uu Uu

Uu Uu Uu

The owl sings in my language.

What was once inaudible or barely perceived, now echoes in the refuge of my waters. 

It comes from afar, to bring to this present the sounds that harmonize memories.

From the low tone, red, ancestral and seismic U, I appreciate my flat feet, anchored to the earth.

The u vibrates in the connections between the outside and the inside, from the mountains of my native Colombia, in the estate of my origins, to the autumn of this intimate and latent awakening.

The u creates bridges in my tubes, the u makes a radiant, orange, and expansive light flowing to the plains of my womb. Paths that become clear, illuminating the dew of my vase, honoring the fertility that so often gave birth in silence.

I breathe an anticipatory song.  You call me, make me remember myself.

I dance, laugh, play. Fusion. I listen to the meaning of the letters and vowels in my names and surnames. I am.

Here is my lineage sustained in the natural resonance of the wind, which from the top of a lush green with yellow flowers, proclaims my childhood free and wild.

I wish to see you, I follow your U’s. You, who see in the intrinsic shadows of the mist, find me, and I discover you in intuition. You sing what I need to hear.

Now my singing is accompanied by intention, and in frequency with emotions, so that the currents flow, stripping away the stagnation in forgetting me.

I have been deaf to the external noise and to those who shout imposing their discourse; silent to the hustle of the big city, with its avenues distracted by the volume of sleepless appliances.

Even more so, you remain there, suspended between two worlds, that of those who give and those who listen.

You and my voice, an honest bond in day and night chords, expanding. I am no longer prey.

You gift me tunes and claws, and I, alone, and in freedom, and healing, I hoot.

One

One By Patricia Lezama 2023

One

Give me your body

Make a place for me to embrace you

In your strength I follow you and lead you.

You are fragile in my nature,

I cling on to you, you hold me

Planted inert in my land

Steely intimacy, we flourish

We are one

love does not corrode

love does not corrode us

we rust love

We look like one

Contained

Your foundations initiate the end of a beginning,

My roots end up assuring us, unscathed.